i want to believe in destiny. in fate. in every dreams and hopes.
i want to believe that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, that silver lining does exist and really shines through.
i want to believe that bad can be good, just as easy as good becomes bad.
i want to love with all my heart, feel the fullness of being so much cared and thought for, just as much as i feel the pain and hurt.
i want it all to be fair, for every downtime balance with good times. every laughter for each tears.
i want to be able to smile, not because i want to please, or look like I'm in the loop, but to smile with apprehension, full of visions and understanding of life, and able to accept it all.
i want to take it in, just as easy as i throw it out.
i don’t want to be this cold hearted monster, who waived every pain as yet another fleck of dust, amounting to nothingness.
i believe that there could happen, where it is a destiny of two people to be together, no matter how long it takes, how hard the struggle. i believe that i don’t shake your hand with no purpose, being able to single you out from all those people at one glance with no reason. somewhere, somehow, i do believe that my instinct will be right. just look at how fate intertwined us together. i knew her first, yet i know she’s your closest friend. i met her first, yet the first time i saw her with you at that mall, i have understood. being bind by fate, i think we ought to take the best out of this mess, and find our one true calling.
frankly i don't know. this road, this path, where it will lead me. whether you’ll walk with me, or i will forever gaze at your shadow, never able to have you as a whole.
i frankly have no idea.
