sure. that’s easier said that done.
truth is, i feel like every time i seem to be able to make even one slight step ahead, there will surely be hurdles and lots of barriers – only to be overcome by two (or more) steps backward.
so unfortunately, i will remain at the same stop. well, only with probably different scene.
this sure sounds like somebody who has given up. or trying to blame all her misery to the unavoidable fate and tragedies of life.
what else can she does?
feels like I've used this title before, but can’t find the post. ohh, whatevs.
you know the saying that goes like this, “best thing happened when you least expect them to”. well, all i can say is best thing that you have been craving for, prayed earnestly for and hopelessly hoped for - did happened, when you least expect it! After weeks of worthless wait, i finally get the chance to be in the same lift with him. (ok, you may laugh now. my super thing may not be as enthralled as others might have, but I'm so grateful that it did happened.)
one thing that i can never forget, the smile. oh ay ay…that ferocious smile that seems to be taking my breathe away each time i see it. like that even possible, right? i think my smile in return was more like…goofy. well you know, those smile that was too big, too much, not sexy at all, far from seducing or enchanting.
he attempted a small talk. we did seemed awkward to be alone together like that anyway, cause somehow the topic is always the same – about my SV. i guess that's what linked us together anyway. who cares about the topic when all i hoped for was to listen to him talking, walking with him on my way back, say “bye, see you” to him at the stairs. ha-ha. oh yeah and did i care about the other person who was in the same lift as us? *don't even remember the face!*
he was such a charming person. and why, such charming person being involved in such sinful act, i could never understand. i don't even want to get into that either.
well i like him like that. admire – that's probably the right word. i am not trying to be such a negative person, but there’s no way he will feel the same way about me. but I'm good with that also. i don't know if i can handle such emotional thing with a person i know from work. that ought to be a handful.
so i admire him, like a painter, admiring the beautiful scenery, while it lasts. trying to take in as much as i can with my artsy eyes, and trying to translate such bespoken beauty onto my….err, sketchbook?
sweet dreams. may i dream of him again tonight, just like the one before ;p
so here come another year. how will i fare? i’d say, only God knows, but i will do my best to make it a good year. anyhow – i have few things in lines to get to through the year..so, somehow, i do look forward to this year.
Jan – kick off my diet plan (i know, not a new thing. in fact this is like a revisit, caused i did it years before. lesson learnt, once you go for a diet, never stop – or at least look at what you eat. else you will see that all those hard works goes in flame!). also to start piggy-banking on these (in order): 1. clear off debts (cards & also my bros), 2. a house, 3. a car
Feb – to be updated
Mar – a promotion maybe? and hopefully a big fat healthy bonus.
Apr – Jogja!
May – Bali!
June – to be updated
July – to be updated
Aug – to be updated
Sept – Kuching!
Oct – to be updated
Nov – to be updated (probably planning for family vacay)
Dec – to be updated
Well, i still have lots to plan. Will put it up properly once i get it in place. haha, what am i saying – ugh, whatevs.
I wish for a good year ahead!
