it has to be a Happy New Year

2008 will end soon, and here comes 2009. It's a new year, again.

But this new year, i don't think i should make the same mistake i did last year. I hope for the best, but i did nothing. I waited for changes to come and sweep me of my lazy feet, not knowing that changes should start in me, inside. I was always sulking, hurting, suffering, feeling down, crying, etc etc etc, but now it all seems to no end. I kept things to myself, not knowing how stupid that was. And in the end, it does not even make me happy. Worst, it makes me much more troubled.

I'm looking forward for 2009, with big heart and whatnot. I want to somehow go through life more peacefully. Of course i will still be surrounded with problems like my dad gambling addiction and he asking me money and me settling his debts, also things like my never-ending story with 'him', and i will sure to feel my work is not enough..but i guess somehow i make a living out of all that. I will just make sure i manage it better, since this kind of problem not so easy for me to settle at once.

Other than this, i truly just want a better year ahead. Amin.