i'm fat, ugly and fat

Well, its been, 5th day since the new year. So, as far as I'm aware of, things has been going pretty well. Not all good for sure, but not all bad either. Kinda well-balanced, I would say. Whatever.

Anyway, at least two good things did happened today, for real.

One, the 'friend' whom i used to avoid since couple of months ago, due to his little confession bla bla, talked to me again. Well not that he actually find me or something. I have no idea by what kind of remorse, but before I realized, I took him out from the blocked list of my YM, and in a few minutes after that, he messaged me. (Expected, wasn't it?)
The best part of all that is when he don't actually talk about the past (the shameful, ugly, not-suppose-to-be-mentioned past), but he straight away asking about my bank account? Can you believe it? I was here before thinking about how on earth i would settle that problem, now out of the thin air, it was settled by itself. Pheww~

Second, I won the best presenter for the Knowledge Sharing in my company. *blushed* I knew it wasn't all grand or anything, but at least, the present became mine. Haha. Yeah, I can be so diligently proud and selfish and so self-absorbed when i get things my way. So whatever, I won. It's sweet to win, haha.

The rest of my life were just normal. You know, all the same stuff about chasing my deadline (before i'm dead, instead), and pacing up with my super-speed manager. I have this important module that need to be finished since last week, but i have not finish anything of that sort yet, by now. I had even promised them to test it by tomorrow. I guess i will have to tatter my squeaky clean record for that by telling them that i'm not done yet, again, tomorrow. (my reason, too many things to focus with, that i had lost my sight on the importance one - anything of that matters)

Oh, I am so so so infatuated by Twilight and all the books in the series. I had downloaded the e-book for all the series, and i will read them from time to time. (I had actually did, which causing me sacrificing the work that i was actually need to do just now). Edward Cullen was just the kind of boyfriend/soul mate/husband that i will want to spend my life with. Haha, i sounded like a lovesick teenagers whenever i was talking about him. Sick, I know. I find it hard to believe myself for this one as well. Usually me. I fall hard for this awesome vampire. huu~

Then i saw some photos of me during the Christmas Party at my company. Oh my God, I am soooo FAT. Seriously. I'm like a balloon, or a bomb. Hideous. And I have no idea how long i have been telling myself that i need to diet, yet it does not seem to kick in any result yet. I need a motivation, and a first step for sure.

But hell, I just had a plate of KFC just now for dinner. Sinful, i know. (For this, I blame the girls who persistently want me to join them for dinner - told them that i need to be on diet - duh)

So diet plan will obviously start again, tomorrow. Must.