hello, is it me you're looking for

"...i can see in your eyes, i can see it in your smile, you're all i ever wanted..."

oh dear, i think i'm about to fall head-over-heels with someone i met at work. i know it's a bad idea, given that he's far more superior than me (i mean, position), he's like the hottest guy in that office, he has numerous admirer, he is nickname "most wanted" and he has no idea i'm falling for him!

"..'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do,
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue..."

or maybe he knows, due to my constant staring and all, but he just trying to toy with me - cause he so used to people falling over him. the gift of pretty face!

but i can't help it. the more i try to ignore the feeling, the more i feel it. when he's near me, i feel like i'm going to lose my heart. like, i can't quite explain - but i'm a total dumb when i'm in front of him. i feel cold, and embarrassed-with-no-reason. if he did as much as standing behind me, my head feels light - and i can't breath quite right. is that normal?

i remember some guy said to me before, that guy doesn't like to be chased, so i would not do anything - or start anything - before i can confirm whether he is just trying to play around, or if he's for real. but how can he possibly be the one? he had some 36 years without me, and i'm saying that now i'm here, he's falling for me? that sounds ridiculous even to my own ear!

so i guess i can only wish for him to be the one - and meanwhile, keep watching for him from far, far away.

(it's raining outside, and i'm crying my heart inside - i'm not gonna see him until after the new year. well, if only he knew, he had just took my heart away, with him.)

"...when you're gone, the pieces of my heart is missing too..."