don't make me your stranger, we'll forever be far

to distrust a person whom i trusted so much is one of the thing that i hated the most. so the quick fix, i choose not to trust anybody easily. but life is unpredictable, u may unintentionally gave your heart to somebody, without knowing the consequences. and when it hurts, you cried. not because of all the things that had happen, but because from that day onwards, you have to stop trusting that person. because you have to live without that kind of trust you used to have and to give. worst, you have to live as if you still can trust, when every confidence you have in a person has gone. vanished.

i wonder how two souls can be so close yesterday, and than being so far apart today. God knows what will happen tomorrow.

I hate to think about what i missed the most, but thats the only thing that keeps on running through my mind. I hate to think of the laugh we shared before, the stories that brought us together, the tears that hugged us like a warm blanket in a cold winter. Where has its all gone? Where's the warmth that used to melt my heart? Where's the happiness that you've promised?

when we used to be together, i thought that nothing can break us apart. when our hands holding on each other, i thought that no winds can blew us away. but why did it happened? why do you have to turn your back on me, and make it as if nothing had happened? and one thing that i yearn to know for long, who am i to you?

I hate to act, I hate to fake. You know this more than anyone else. But now, i have to act as if you didn't hurt me. I have to fake my smile, my laugh, and my happiness.

this is not about who is wrong, or who is right. but what i hope is an explanation. something that will make me understand, that nothing of all this is your intention. i yearn for your promises, for all the good days that you've told me before.

why do you have to be nice to me, make me believe that i can put my hope on you, that i can trust you, and then you asked me to stay away? i have a heart, in case you didn't noticed. and i am a normal human being, in case you didn't realized. how can i be happy, when you asked me not to bother about you? how can i understand, when you ask me not to ask? and you wouldn't tell. how can i still believe in you?

why does it hurt so much, to understand, and to let go? shit, why do i even bother to cry.