today i feel better

today i feel better, and i don't know why. well, sure enough, i'm one of a kind of person who question myself of 'what had went wrong' when i feel better. ermm, nvm, ignore that.

its 5th day of ramadhan. i love ramadhan, when everything felt much calmer and peaceful. i wish i can have ramadhan every single day.

i was busy at work today. really busy until i don't have time to surf around like i usually did. rushing for a project, and being 'disturb' from time to time regarding the new project. (one that i don't know anything about!)

yesterday was weird. everyone seems to give me weird notation. really.

from my boss...(who suddenly came over to my place, which made me feel extremely...disturbed.)
mr.g : so, hows everything? (this is default question)
me : ermm...pardon?
mr.g : how's everything? (a little louber, with a beam of konon2 cute smile)
me : oh..fine. i have talked to bla bla bla...(updating about the project, half mumbling actually)
mr.g : oh..ok
then he walked away, but turned back, to ask me..
mr.g : are you ok?
me : umm..ya (nodding head)
mr.g : no la..i thought you're sick, cos you look pale.
me : *dont know what to answer*
me : ermm..maybe because im fasting.
mr.g : oh ok (smile again and finally went to 'disturb' other people)

from a colleague, who sit in front of my table, who actually i dont actually like (ya, actually actually)
colleague : hi...(flapping her hands, she juts reached office at that time) (usage of word flapping make me imagining her as a penguin) (haha) (why so many brackets??)
me : hi, morning (smiles...half-heartedly - told you i hate her, haha)
colleague : why you look like not enough sleep? (asking with her 'annoyingly' concerned tone)
me : no ah.. (gave her one of my 'dont know how to explain' look)

from another colleague, whom i don't hate, haha (what kind of description is this??!!)
colleague 2 : eh, you ok or not?
me : why? (making weird face)
colleague 2 : no la,you look like not ok
me : *laugh*

well, i don't know how terrible i'd look yesterday. i still see the same person in the mirror anyway, so, i don't know who they saw yesterday. hmm..

btw regarding the colleague that i say i don't like, i could not think of a valid-and-acceptable reason on why i don't like her. i just don't like, full stop. i had even came out with a blatant statement in one of the conversation i had today. it goes like this.."she's too bising i feel like stuffing her into the dustbin". i know, mean. heartless even.

i am arrogant. don't need to tell it to my face, cos i know.

and i am a person who walk without a goal.

p/s: i hope you read this, because im too lazy to reply email. btw your new work place sounds nice. good luck for your future undertakings.