to remember...and to forget

when i was a kid, and throughout my student life, and until now, I'd always thought that to remember something is the hardest thing in life. I had really worked hard to remember things, and its a big deal when I forget. But, as I grow up, I learn to realize that the opposite of the word remember is even harder to be done.

Yes, I learn that it is hard, very hard to forget something that you've craved on your heart. There's a lot of tips to remember things, but i have yet found any tips on forgetting. There's a lot of methods to remember things, but I cannot find one to forget.

And unlike things that you want to remember, things that you want to forget usually will hurt you during its stay. It hurts a lot.

There's number of things that I wish it will just disappear from my heart, but I have no magic to do that. And as long as it is there, it has poison my heart, break it, and i am losing myself day by day. I am so afraid to face the future, for what is so unknown and unpredictable.

I am not sure how far I can go, but my step gets smaller, and slower...