don't know whats wrong

my family is breaking apart
I HATE IT
because i have to be the strong one and cannot fall apart

my housemate said i'm too quiet and just bother about myself,
I HATE IT
because i don't know how to make friend with them

my colleagues keep on talking about their dieting program,
I HATE IT
because it make me feel fat and ugly

my room is too small and messy
I HATE IT
because i don't have enough budget to move to a better place

my thighs are too big and fatty
I HATE IT
because i cannot fit in a nice pair of jeans

my job doesn't seem to suit my soul
I HATE IT
because i don't have any other talent to do other things

my boss trying to act nice and caring
I HATE IT
because i hate to later learn that he may fake it all

my i-thought-you-are-my-soulmate ignores me for quite sometime now
I HATE IT
because i'm not strong enough to ignore him

my works is piling like Everest
I HATE IT
because i love wasting time, a lot

my heart aching and i feel sad
I HATE IT
because i hate being sad and weak

did i wrote ten yet? i HATE to count now, but if i did, thats it, 10 things i hate about me.

(haiz...where's the silver lining??? where??? all i keep on seeing is the dreadful dark cloud.)