A dream

Last nite, i had a dream. Or shall i say, its a nightmare. When i woke up from it, i dare not even think about what i've been dreaming about. Somehow i get the feeling that if i think about it, it will become true. And even if i have to sacrifice my own life, i would not want this dream to be true. It is scary enough as a dream.

I woke up sweating, and my face was still wet from tears. Yes, in that dream i was crying, and it turns out that i had cried in my sleep. Awful.

Eventhough i say that i dare not try to remember the dream, it was craved in my mind. I can - for the very first time - remember every part of a dream.

It goes like this...

In that dream, I was like walking on a thin air, someplace that i cannot make any resemblance with what we have in here. I was not a lone. Somebody was with me, holding my hand. I can't remember the face of that person beside me, but i can feel how much i was holding onto this person. But then, i remember saying something - which i don't remember what thing - and suddenly the whole place went into chaos. It's like earth quake or something alike, but the thing is, i was not even on earth. As i said earlier, i don't know where i was, but I'm sure it does not look like here. Heaven? Hell? God forbid i hope its not.

As if necessary, the person next to me start to let go of my hand, and i can 'feel', i cannot see, but i feel the distance grow bigger and bigger as the whole place crashes. I tried to pull out my hand..trying to grip that hand again, but i can't. And again i feel the person giving me the kind of smile when you want to say 'its ok, everything will be ok', when you know that thing won't be ok. I was devastated, and very sad. I bet this is where the tears started to flow on me. I remember running towards that person, but i was running in vain.

In that mixed feeling of desperation and sadness, i woke up to realize that it was a dream...

And as i wrote this, i can still feel the shivers i felt last nite. I can still feel the feeling of losing, and how much it broke my heart. And even though i don't see the face of that person, one thing for sure is he/she was someone i really love and care.

I know it was just a dream, and i should not pay so much attention to it, what more to feel scared or anything. But i can't help myself.

And please God, don't take anyone i love from me.

P/S: When I woke up and checked my phone, it was 2.34 am. And i couldn't sleep since after that.